"Sometimes the Lord lets you go threw the red sea so that when you get to the other side ,you can look back and see your enemies dead on the opposite shore."
Its a quote but I cant remember from where  ,but this is what I know . God lets you go through some intense stuff  to show you what he can do and to grow in you what you need .It  can feel like Hes left you and doesnt see but ,beloved He sees. And one day when the timing is right you will be on that shore looking back across the sea, singing that victorious  song .

The First Meeting

Found

Theres nothing like it in the world ; the feeling you have when you make the decision
to relinquish control ,to turn your life over to the Creator of all. The whole world looks different,
some people say colors look crisper,  everything seems bright and beautiful ,problem seems to dim in the light of finding out who God is ,you feel like you've won the lottery ! But its better.
Suddenly you've found the answer to it all ,and your on cloud nine .You find out that hole in you life ,in your heart has something to fill it ,and its stays full .You don't need to chase the next high or adventure,or project or relationship .You've got it and you feel it ,its fullness in the fullest sense, completion that relies on the only constant unchanging thing there is God. You have found the long sought after meaning of life, and you know it .
Your in love ,giddy ,sea sick ,joyous love.  he consumes all your thoughts  day and night .It feels like you have reached heaven.You're soul feels pure ,clean, innocent   untouched by despair, death, darkness. You have experienced time travel it seems the regrets that once  kept you awake deep into the night are gone as if they never were..... The realization that the God of the Universe chose YOU.
You've  found  Him and Hes found you .



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A psalm of my own

Speak to me love and i will listen .Rebuke me and I will respond . Love me and I will love you .
Let me never cease to long for you .Overcome me with your spirit for I am weary and long to embrace you .
Your beauty is endless  and your power  so real.
Abba I want to want what you  want ,I want to think how you think ,I want to  have your compassion for your children . Oh Lord let me serve you ,let me lavish praises on you ,let me pour my fragrant oil  on your feet and wipe them with my hair . How I would love to see your face  looking at me with pure love . No one is like you my God . Every moment I am with you is heaven .Lord unleash this praise in me to flow outwardly  ,to pour on the world I see . Remove the chaff  from this soul , unchain my spirit to soar , to do the work you created me to do .